12.18.2008

Our life begins with this.

Last night I walked to the bank and I ran into a remarkably drunk and very old german woman named Linda. I tried to follow her 3/4 german 1/4 english story she was telling me but somehow I just ended up dancing with her in the street while she told me about how her husband looks like St. Nikolaus and they both love Michael Jackson. It was a great time.

Today was my last day of Lecture Phase.
Tomorrow I get to see my favorite face in the whole world. 
17 days and I'll be living in Africa for 3 months.

Christmas morning I'm going to wake up in a hostel with Nicky Hackett and seven other random people I've never met before. Yessss.
I had to pick the hostel we were staying at... it was between Letum Sleep 7, Three Little Pigs Hostel, or The Pegasus Hostel. I went for Pegasus. 
I'll tell you how it goes! Merry Christmas :-)

12.10.2008

How am I not myself?

How am I not myself?
How am I not myself?
How am I not myself?



Today someone asked me, 
So really, who are you? Who is Joanna. Tell me about you...her... Would I like her? What does she love? What is she passionate about? What makes her angry? What's her story? What does she want?

I had no idea what to say.





If I am not myself, who will be me?
But, if I am only myself, what am I?
And if not now, when?

12.07.2008

Thirteen more days


So I have like 27 different paths I could take at the moment.
I really make things hard for myself sometimes. Three months from now, who knows. Whatever?

Other than that, I've been having some great times. My meals mainly consist of spicy pringles and German energy drinks, my weekends lately are photoshoots and Star Wars marathons. 
This weekend, I got lost in Berthelsdorf looking for the christmas market, and we tried to ask some cute old germans where it was, I tried to make some hand motions of...buying things... and they were like Ohh! The Disco? So yeah that was a failure. 
But it was St. Nickolaus day so I got some candy in my shoes when I woke up, which makes any day better.

We had a 24 hour of prayer weekend for our photo outreaches and it was so amazing. I signed up for mostly absurd hours in the morning and while I was in the prayer room laying on the ground with my Bible on my head, I heard God's voice clearer than ever before in my life. I can't wait to find out what He has planned for Ethiopia. I'm getting so excited. Shiza.

Oh, and it snowed.

12.04.2008

Sighisoara


Thanks to the incredibly random man that saved all the pictures I deleted from my memory card. 
God is awesome.

We stayed in Budapest two nights. I mean... really. I have never felt so drawn to place. 
If Europe and the Middle East had a baby, it would look just like Budapest. I was so intrigued
 by everything about the Hungarian culture and I really don't think thats the last time I'll be there.

SO then we drove a million hours through rain and fog to get to Medias, Romania.
The staff at the YWAM base there are so amazing. Walking in that place I suddenly felt like I was in the middle of My Big Fat Greek Wedding, which is really just a great feeling. Romanians are so crazy and I loved every second I got to spend with them. 
Being a missionary in that place would be incredibly difficult. Romania has pain and poverty everywhere you look and you can physically feel it driving through the country. Even all the weird Dracula history has had a visible effect on the country and there are a lot of demonic strongholds there.
There is a lot of racism against gypsy people, a lot of orphans begging on the streets, and ridiculous amounts of prostitution... Parents even encouraging their daughters to go into it because of the money. Its really insane. 

We spent a lot of time just praying with them and for their country, we led worship for the base in the mornings and I think it really encouraged them. They really need people to go to Romania and live there long term, to be on staff, to help them, to just be a light there. It was so cool to hear the stories of the YWAM staff in Romania, many of them were orphans on street, little gypsy kids, they have incredible stories of finding God and how they are now living to help the kids that are like they were see Him too. 
We walked around and had worship in a ghetto of a gypsy town and it was a really beautiful and hard moment. 
Some of the gypsy kids in the neighborhood came up and held our hands as we walked through. The YWAM staff told us about the kids that come to the school they started, and how snack time there is the only time the kids get to eat some days. One guy had told us about the growth of prostitution and about the two men that had started it in that town, then showed us the house those men lived in, and we walked by one of them with one of the girls. Hearing about prostitution and how awful it is and how the girls are treated is one thing, but then walking by the girl, the man, seeing the house it happens in, that will never leave you. 
One thing I wonder is how to tell people these things. I don't know how to help the people I've met other than to pray for them, to talk about them, to ask God to send more people to help them. I just feel a lot of responsibility to do something about what I've seen.
How do you show someone the terrible things of the world and then ask them to go there? Its hard, its pretty much impossible without God moving in them first. 
I hope someday I will be able to have the right words to express the beauty that is in the most hopeless places, the glory of God that is in the eyes of a prostitute, and be able to tell their stories in a way that's worthy of them. 

12.02.2008

Transylvania

I've gotten so lazy
at writing blogs
and doing things

I went to 5 countries last week, and I would like to show you the pictures, but I deleted my entire memory card like a moron. 
But God is so awesome and He can use me even when I mess everything up, and a random guy came up to me and told me he could recover all my files. So when I get them, you guys will be the first to know.

It was a hard week in Romania, we traveled a long way to do what felt like not very much, but God used us to encourage the missionaries there and pray for them as much as possible. They have the hardest job I could ever imagine. 
I got to hug some gypsy children and have worship in a gypsy ghetto in the city that Dracula was supposedly born in.  and Josiah even pierced one of the orphans on the street's ear.
It was a beautiful week of my life, I think I'm going to be thinking about it for few years before I understand it.