Yeah

So I can't talk about outreach locations on the internet, I found out. For the best though.

I turned in the magical sheet of paper with my top three choices and now its up to God and the DTS staff to put me where I'm supposed to be. 

Everyday I have more questions for God. Everyday a new one gets answered. :-)

We bought our tickets to Romania this week. Taking the train to Budapest, Hungary and staying there for a night, then driving up to Romania. Maybe a pit stop in Transylvania....oooooh.

like Fireworks

I really don't like seminars. or writing mission statements for my life. 

or not having time to take pictures. 

But I do like black tea.

I found out I'm going to Romania for a week in November, huzzah! We're hopefully going to an orphanage. I'm so excited. Please pray for my team and for what God has for us there. 

My digital camera lens broke... Thats really bad. If you know of anyone who is selling a Canon lens of any sort, any condition, please let me know. 

Aaaand I sent out my first newsletter- if you didn't get one let me know and I'll e-mail it to you.

or just e-mail me now. 

sailboatescape@gmail.com

My Life; part 1

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Finally got some prints scanned!

I love it here. I have hard days, but as a whole this is one of the greatest times of my entire life. I can't ever be thankful enough that I am here.

The staff is incredible, man. I wish the Schlegels could adopt the whole photo dts and we could be a traveling missionary photographer family and live in tents in Africa and have underground darkrooms and start a revolution of love.

Prague

I like that place

Yes yes yes

19 years old. :-)




I've been here 40 days today, wow.

Dear Earthlings

Hahaha this would be happening on my birthday-

AWAKE DEAR ONES INTO THE LIGHT OF YOURSELVES.

October 14, 2008- Alien Visitation
According to 'Direct Voice Channelling Medium' Blossom Goodchild, On October 14, 2008, a large alien craft will appear in our skies over the southern hemisphere for a period of 3 days. Goodchild calls these cosmic beings The Federation of Light and has stated that "that they come in LOVE to help us and our planet move to a new Higher Vibration of Love."

News Article: 
Dozens of very influential UFO researchers and psychics have all set October 14 as the date when a massive spaceship seen by millions would show up and stay in Earth's atmosphere for more than two days. The people who claim to be in contact with these aliens say the extra terrestrial's aim is to prove to the humans that they have brothers and sisters outside of Earth who look just like them, thus putting an end to more than 2 thousands years of religious, historical and scientific manipulation of earth governments over people.

So guys, be vigilant. Keep your eyes to the skies.

I love you Heather.

THANKS

Friends are people who send you pirate and dinosaur tattoos when you move to another country.

Best present ever.

oh and this is good-

Worship Dance Parties

Best thing ever

Engraved on the Palm of His Hands

I just came upstairs from our first regular dts class.

To sum it up- 

I sat on the floor, weeping, crying louder than I ever have before tears of brokenness and healing.

People prayed for me and each other, some of them fell to ground, some laughed.

God began healing me in places I had pushed so deep inside of myself that I didn't even realize had been hurting for so long. 

I can hear Him again. I want so much more. 

This verse came to me from two separate times this morning and it has some of the most beautiful words I've ever been told-

"I will not forget you. 

See, I have engraved you on the palm of my hands." Isaiah 49:16

What God showed me, was that to hear Him, I have to be honest with Him... and myself.

I had to be okay with saying, 

God I don't know if I love you.

But what I do know is that I want to.

God I'm not happy with my life. I wish I was making a difference. I wish I trusted you.

But I know you can help me to know you- to trust you,

I know you can use me to make a difference in the world. But first I need you to heal me, and to show me who I am. 

He changed my heart because I finally showed it to Him and I am falling in love with Him again.

Oh and on my way upstairs to write this- there was something in my mailbox.

The Ordinary Radicals movie. 

:-) :-) :-)

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YWAM= Young Women After Men?

jklol

but seriously

Opened

I guess I'm supposed to give up things I hold onto too tightly. Even if they're just unreachable expectations or dreams that come in the way.

All the new kids got here today. Change is good.

I'm excited for the next three months.

Psalm 138:8

The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me;

your love, O Lord, endures forever-

do not abandon the works of your hands.

Shiza

How am I ever supposed to heal if the scabs keep getting ripped off my wounds?

I wish I could just not like people. Then it wouldn't hurt me so bad. 

Some Things I Didn't Expect

Things I never expected...

- That Jan Schlegel (Pronounced Yann Shlaygul) would look exactly like Chris Farley...

- That I'd be in a dark room till 3 AM most days

- That Shiza is not really a cuss word, just really fun to say ALL the time.

- That I would get to witness a purple exercise ball being thrown out of a castle window.

- That I would actually be excited about coming home in April. I already can't wait.

- Velvet couches.

- That I would meet the most frustrating people I've ever encountered. Along with the most beautiful and fantastic.

- That I would see such prevalent racism still existing. East Germany still has a lot of Nazis and its really so spiritually dark in some of these towns. Germany is such a beautiful, sad country. Its like the most beautiful woman you've ever seen with huge sad eyes. You can tell the people, the towns have seen so many sad and terrible things. But God brings beauty and restoration and its so incredible to witness.

- That an ocean apart is really. far.

- That you can seriously take a dance party anywhere you can think of.

- That I would wake up and hate where I am.

- That I would wake up and I know I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.

- That I would be taking cross-country roadtrips through Germany, 

meeting people who are lost and people who are shining, 

and sleeping on church floors as I go. 

God has bigger dreams than I could ever imagine.